If I could make just one Christmas wish,
I would wish I could see you.
To hold, to snuggle, to just kiss,
This is something I'd really like to do.

My arms ache for my baby boy,
Who will always remain just that.
To never grow and experience joy,
I wish I knew where you were at.

Why is it God thought he needed you more than I,
And why is it wishes can't come true?
I am just an aching heart who can only ask why,
And a mother who can't let go of you.

Please God grant me this one Christmas wish,
If just for a minute, an hour or a day.
he is someone I really need & miss,
What more must I say?

It'It's the night before Christmas, we're all filled with joy,
except when we think of you, little boy.
The stockings are hung by the chimney with care,
and in our hearts it's as if you were here. 
Ethan is sleeping, in his bedroom he lay,
but we're still filled with grief since you went away.
You see, this Christmas you would have been two,
But every Christmas I know we'll miss you.
As I wrap up the presents my thoughts are on you,
and what we'd have bought if you were here, too.
A car, a ball, a red fire truck
or a shiny new penny to bring you good luck
The tree is all trimmed with bright coloured balls,
and decorations hang on all of the walls.
It looks so pretty - - I wonder if you see
Your Christmas ball we've hung on the tree.
I made it for you before you were here,
Not knowing I'd hang it with eyes filled with tears.
Tomorrow is Christmas; I'll try not to be sad;
I'll count all my blessings and try to be glad, 
your a part of our future - - and a part of our past
and someday I know we'll be together at last.

Be good angels for Christmas
when the snow is laying
on the day called xmas eve,
santa creeps to our houses,
drops a present and leaves!
then when he's done our children,
rudolf flies up high
the angels hear the jingles,
as he swoops up into the sky,
so they hurry into bed,
and close their eyes to sleep,
but your special little angel,
just has to have a peep!
and over on a cloud,
is santa with a smile,
"would u like to come with me?
help me with gifts for a while"
your angel jumps aboad,
and can not hide the glee,
as they fly around the heavens ,
and guess what they see??
there's 1 little house left,
and all the lights are low,
so they fly onto the roof
down the chimney they go!
santa drops the presents
and sits down on a chair
and waits for your angel
who is stroking your hair.
''im always near you family,
i'm never too far away,
and when u hear the children laughing,
u'll know its christmas day!

even though you cant see me
i promise ill be there,
watching the sparkles on the xmas tree,
letting you know i care!
ill wipe away all tears of sadness
because u know in your heart,
that me n u are always together,
we can never be apart!
santa brought me to see you,
i had a ride upon his sleigh!!!
and tho he'll take me back to bed,
ill be here xmas day.
so here's my present to you,
a kiss upon your face
when u wake up in the morning
it will still be in place.

We've shared our hearts, full of Holiday Cheer
and shopped for presents for loved ones this year
the house is dressed up with garland and lights
that sparkle and shine through the Holiday nights
But even with all of this Holiday bliss
there’s someone we lost that we terribly miss
and as this Christmas Day draws near
we wish with all of our hearts cj was here.
he's living his life way up past the stars
Somewhere past Jupiter, Saturn and Mars
he's spending his Christmas in Heaven, you see
And last night as I slept, a dream came to me
he was standing before me, happy and well
he said to me "I have something to tell…
Heaven's more wondrous than you would believe
it’s the greatest of gifts I could ever receive.
I'd like for you all to remember the good…
You know that I'd be there if only I could.
So don't feel so bad that I'm not there
There are so many memories you can share
As you gather together, I'm sure you'll find
the gifts deep within you that I left behind.
Each one is unique and wrapped brightly in love
they shine from your hearts as I shine from above."

       



Welcome to my site, 
Made with love by my mummy  


This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved son, Cayden-jake Stephen Allan Walker who was born in Halifax on May 10, 2006 and Was born sleeping on May 10, 2006 . We will remember him forever and always.








OUR baby son cayden-jake was taken away from us on the 10th of may 2006 he was born sleeping.I was 30 weeks pregnant and my gorgeous little angel stopped moving everyday my heart is breaking me in two, i miss him so much , i go to his garden everyday to light his candles thats the only thing which is helping me cope.Its so hard our little precious little angel has gone but he has not really gone he"s in my heart and my memories forever i love you babes love mummy n daddy






To the Child in my Heart 

O precious tiny sweet little one you will always be to me, so perfect pure and innocent just as you were meant to be.
We dreamed of you and of your life and all that it would be, we waited and longed for you to come and join our family. We never had the chance to play, to laugh to rock to wiggle, we long to hold you, touch you now and listen to you giggle. I will always be your mother, he'll always be your dad,
you will always be our child, the child that we had. But now your gone...but yet your here, we'll sense you everywhere,
you are our sorrow and our joy there's love in every tear. Just know our love goes deep and strong, we'll forget you never.
The child we had, but never had and yet we'll have forever






 



this is me cayden_jake my uncle ste (godfather)made me this cool photoframe i love ya uncle ste xxx



 
The name Cayden means:






If we could have a lifetime wish
and one dream that could come true
We would pray to God with all our
hearts just to see and speak to you
A thousand words won’t bring you back
We know because we’ve tried
and neither will a million tears
We know because we’ve cried
You’ve left behind our broken hearts
and precious memories too
But we’ve never wanted memories
We only wanted you.






















My Garden(mummys 2nd home)







The Cord

We are connected, my child and I,
by an invisible cord not seen by the eye.
It's not like the cord that connected us 'till birth,
this cord can't be seen by anyone on earth.
This cord does its work, right from the start,
it bonds us together, attached at the heart.
I know that its there though no one can see,
the invisible cord, from my child to me.
The strength of this cord, it's hard to describe.
it can't be destroyed, it can't be denied.
It's stronger than any cord, man could create,
it withstands the tests, can hold any weight.
And though you are gone, not here with me,
the cord is still there, but no one can see.
It pulls at my heart, I am bruised....I am sore,
but this cord is my lifeline, as never before.
I am thankful that God connected this way,
a mother and a child, death can't take it away!











my nanna see"s my garden during the week and my grandad comes every weekend to see my garden . nanna misses me lots n so does grandad.









This is my big brother 
Ethan-Frank.
you are my special brother who is up in the sky now. i saw ur star in the sky the other night. I miss you lots and lots . I never got to see you but ive seen a photo of my angel brother Cayden-jake. lots of love and always love ethan-frank x x x x x x







This is my mummy





 
my auntie beth comes to see me once a week i am looking after her friend who is an angel like me laura looks after me now when in heaven with the angels.And i want to stay that i will always be here for u sweetheart . Thinking of u always never forget you caydenjake stephen allan walker xxxxxx


Im a angel now my mummy is always telling me.







Im a precious angel ive got my angel wings now .


 I gained my angel wings on 11th of july 2006 when i found my angel place.


This is how i was born sleeping with the angels 








 This is my auntie rachel and shannon.










Angels are looking over you now cj.



A prayer & a tear for you


Im as sweet as I am










I said, God I hurt
And God said, I know

I said, I cry alot
And God said, That's why I gave you tears

I said, Life is so hard
And God said, That's why I gave you loved ones

I said, But my loved one died!!
And God said, So did mine!!

I said, It's such a great loss!!
And God said, I saw mine nailed to a cross!!

I said, But your loved one lives!!
And God said, So does yours!!

I said, Where is he now??
And God said, My Son is by my side and
Your Son is in my arms!! 





toffee our cat.


shine like a star at nite




love us all
  


I just want to tell mummy & daddy dat I
Vry much XXXXXX





Ethan-Frank From your Baby Bro Cayden-Jake XXXX


         
              

this is one of my angel friends i play with up in heaven. this is a gorgeous n precious little angel called johnna rusk she died like i did sleeping with the angels.  sweet dreams sweet heart love cayden-jakes mummy n daddy xxxxx











 




 



Anyone who leaves a candle for our special little angel please leave ur name and adress for your special little angel"s and i will light them a  candle love cayden-jake"s mummy thankyou x
  



A LITTLE POEM FOR MY BABY BOY CAYDEN JAKE

there was so much joy when me and daddy found out you was coming along,

we jumped up and down in excitment 

we was so looking forward to becoming a mummy and daddy again.

we went out and bought you a new pram lots of new clothes and even lots of teddy bears just for you

i got to 7 and half months pregnant and only 10 more weeks to go i got really excited i was finally going to meet you!

I kept thinking who would my baby boy look like?

then something which was meant to be my happiest day in my life became the worst

my baby boy stopped moving on the 8th off may 2006 we went to the hospital they was nothing i could do .

i kept thinkin i should have protected him he was inside me why had this happened? what haD I DONE WRONG? 

i had to give birth to him on the 10th of may  when i was in labour i kept wishing the hospital  had got it all wrong about you, but they hadn"t , i held you for the first time and i loved you so much , i didnt want to let you or say goodbye.

but i had to you had your angel wings 

you was sent for a post mortam on the 12th of may 2006 we buried you on the 11th of july 2006

i still wake up during the night expecting you to be there  crying for me, its so hard without you

i  will never forget my baby cayden jake 

we named our angel cayden jake stephen- after my dad allan --after daddys dad.

i know you will always be looking down on us from the sky with your angel friends

we always think about you they is not a day what goes by i dont miss or think about you 

mummy"s little angel
Daddy"s little star

OUR ANGEL CAYDEN-JAKE  10TH OF MAY 2006 
WE WILL NEVER FORGET YOU

ALL OUR LOVE MUMMY, DADDY AND ETHAN-FRANK YOUR BROTHER